I thought it would help to write about what I'm going through. In fact, writing is my magic- if I have any at all.
The ability to pass an idea from my head to yours and have you see it the same way I do, if only for a moment , is my gift.
This morning I read a wonderful article about bipolarity and all of it's idiosyncratic oddities. It was eye opening, sad and true.
She described my behavior to a T. Mostly, it's the irritability that drives me nuts. I'm not comfortable anywhere. If I sit outside, I find something wrong with it, or I feel exposed. If I sit inside I feel secluded and too far away from the rest of the family or whoever is home.
Sometimes mom asks if I want to ride into town with her to her venue, which isn't far away, maybe seven or eight miles-- often times I can't because I know if I get too agrevated, too impatient -- I'll freak out and cry or get disproportionately pissed of at something mundane.
In the article I read this morning, the author talked about anger and irritably in bipolar people and how it doesn't get talked about enough. Well, it really doesn't, evidently I've been looking for the wrong symptoms/signs/details this whole time.
The awesome article I read: CLICK HERE 💜💜💜