I really could not tell you what state I'm in right now.
It feels like some sort of hybrid mixed state. I baked two apple cakes today. Baking used to help a lot, But it hasn't lately any exception of today, because I was able to actually get up and move around in a depressive state.
But then I surprised myself by doing a few other goal related activities that I normally wouldn't do in a depressive state.
I've been having a hard time sleeping, and that is sometimes an early warning sign that I might be about to experience a mood switch.
I'm aggravated. I'm anxious. I feel aloof from everyone else. Yet, I was able to shower and get dressed this morning. I haven't taken any naps. And my body doesn't hurt like hell.
I'm not actively taking my antipsychotic right now, I don't feel that I need it. It makes me so slow and lethargic, it takes me a week to get over it.
But I have access to it, and I feel like that's all that's important when somebody reaches a level of mania that becomes agitated or depressive.
