How did I get here? (No, seriously...)
The music industry and all of its components was a subject that never crossed my mind two years ago. I have always considered myself a writer, a blogger; a word person.
I've done a small amount of voice work narrating my creepypastas on YouTube-- but beyond that, I was a complete musical neophyte. A green thumb. A newbie.
Half a decade ago, chillwave and artists like CHVRN, CVRL, foxwedding, Blank Body, Sybyr, Night Lovell (among many other instrumentalists and composers) found their way into my feed and I've been addicted to wave music ever since.
I live with Bipolar 1, and some days can feel pretty overwhelming and hopeless. Somehow, through the chaos of inconsistency and dark farm trauma🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️,,, I began to realize that the only thing that was keeping me emotionally afloat was my Spotify playlist.
I felt inspired when inundated by ethereal melodies gliding into my ears. Whenever I was in my truck, my (mostly instrumental) music was on go. I was enjoying hi-hat triplets and bass rolls arranged by some of the most skilled underground artists of my generation.
I listened to chillwave and instrumental trap so much, I ran out of new music to inhale. I started getting discouraged. I didn't really have a lot of healthy coping mechanisms and the thought of not being able to enjoy new music of this type was devastating to me.
I looked around on the internet for other places I could find wave music like I loved😍. Finding things I had already listened to and mostly played out. Finding those hidden gems became less and less common.
I got irritated by this, and decided to do something about it. I figured creating more wave would be easier than finding it at this point. I was wrong, but my next step would eventually lead me here.
I downloaded a music app. I was lucky enough to find a mentor very quickly. Not only was my mentor skilled, he was incredibly patient and supportive.
I'm not much of a singer, but I do occasionally rap when my throat chakra allows. 😁😆
So now, almost 3 years after "running out of content to listen to", I've literally come full circle. I now know enough to begin working on my original goal: populate the world with trap instrumentals that conjure butterflies in your stomach and goosebumps that decorate your skin.
I suppose my ultimate musical goal is to elicit an emotion quite similar to what I call existential appreciation. It's basically just a random moment of beauty that deeply resonates with the soul and reminds us that we are all part of "infinity".
Infinite and "forever" are concepts that I personally have a hard time with. I think humanity has a hard time with them too. But in the end, I find nothing more comforting than a soul moving piece of art, be it music, or some other medium. The emotion, (conveyed and passed to you by the artist) regardless of the genre, is immensely satisfying.
That "feeling" has intermittently (in odd occasions) kept me alive. It's a reminder of hope,,, and I know that sounds cheesy af, but sometimes the best medicine is not a complicated philosophical approach to the big issues. Sometimes it is as simple as a sweet melody or a heartfelt chord.
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