"Whatinnafuqua is that?" you ask, welp, it's the newest crazy pill on the list of drugs I've tried--- and brohiem, lemme tell you, it's a long ass list.
I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar 1 and, if you know me IRL, I was manic as all hell a few weeks ago, and that's probably the last time you heard from me.
Just to give you some background on bipolar, it's an asshole. Mania is an acute episode of super jacked up on nothing. One day, you just wake up and (in my case) start cleaning everything. Like, errrrything. It's like speed but your body is doing it to you by itself.
Mania can become so bad or last for so long you can't get enough sleep to keep from hallucinating. It's also easy to find yourself stuck on a certain topic (music, writing, art, pick something) for days.
My manic episodes last about a month without intervention. My latest episode was culled with lithium, which I didn't care for at all. (Made me feel sick).
Why am I excited about Vraylar? How could I be dumb enough to get excited about any new medicine claiming to fix bipolar?
Well, this one is supposed to be different. On the one side of bipolarity you have mania. Most people love their manic episodes unless they embarrass themselves or overspend (I'm guilty of both). Bought a $55 mop. I live with my mother because of bi-fucking-polar
*clears throat, is pissed*
*Keep it classy, baby, keep it classy*
Because of my mental health. But I was so manic, I spent $155.00 on clothes and a 1/3 of it was for a mop and I don't even own my own floor anymore.
Fuck me.
Anywho, depressive episodes are the other half of the bipolar shit show. Oooooo it's so fun. One minute you think you're well, you're moving around getting shit done feeling good, then BAM!!! You're down like you took a substantially sized sausage to the face in a not fun way.
You don't know what the fuck happened, you're friends just start to assume you're on drugs or just a half-assed person, but meanwhile you have this sneaky invisible thing turding on your brain.
The guilt is massive and so it the shame and embarrassment.
But yes this pill is supposed to treat the ups and the downs. Cross your fingers for me dudes and dudettes. Let's hope this shit works.