Why Am I Getting BrainShocks When My Dosage Hasn't changed?
Everyday they get more and more inexplicable. Constantly changing. I am in flux as always. I guess as we all are, but mine bothers me.
The worst thing about the hackers was they made me manically lose my temper and then do a super dip in which I was paranoid and had to force myself to go to sleep. I won't link it, it's not my proudest episode.
But I've learned that under higher stress, I'm more fragile that I had considered.
We can't go through life like bowling balls and expect not to get dirty. In this I mean, a bowling ball is powerful, and when chucked at a target it's definitely foe worth worrying about, but at the same time, if a bowling ball rolls through shit at 300 mph, it's still going to have some shit on the outside of it. So the human soul is the same. It just depends on how much shit you rolled through and it how fast you rolled through it.
I'm told to trust a system who has no trust in me. That's the most disconcerting. Mental health is viewed as malingering, an act, fake and has hysterical connotations to it.
If you go into a mental health hospital with a bag, they start talking to you slowly. Because they are of the mind that the only thing that would drive a free and (semi-well of body) human being to reach out for help of their own volition, would be psychosis or severe depression. But that's not always true. It is in my case, but if I go in, I'm taking cameras.
